The letter. 

Dear Dad, I never told you how much I love you. I guess you never did too but I know you love me, you’ll always love me and I want you to know that I love you too. You’ve been there for me to support me in all my ups and down. Whether I tell you or not, you know what’s bothering me. You always do. I’m sorry that I nag a lot, I don’t listen to you many times. I think I’ve grown up and can handle everything but your concern is only because you care and you’ll always be worried about me. I feel safe when I’m with you. I feel happy around you and mom.
But there are a few things more that I never told you. I’ve never told you about the problems I’ve been through all my life. The times I thought I’ll be able to handle everything all by myself but I couldn’t. The times I got beaten up but refused to tell you. The times I flunked the subjects but tried managing it all by myself. The times I skip dinner just because I’m not physically able to leave the bed. The times I’ve spent the nights crying because I don’t want to stay away from you. The times when there is no one to ask me if I’m doing okay in college and how my friends are? The times I lied about how caring my friends are and if I actually do have friends.
But I’m fine. I’ll go through all this and not complain. I don’t want you to worry about me. I’m happy. I actually am. I’m happy to see you smile. To see you laugh when I tell you how fun my day was. I’m happy that you are happy even if I have to lie for it.
Dear Dad, I love you and I miss you.

I’m sorry for the mistakes I’ve made.

And thank you for ignoring them.

 


By Aditya Upadhyay

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